Some things you must face alone

Staring day 4.
I’m struggling. Not with going back to my addiction, but rather with the feelings it covered up.

Great sorrow.

I needed the added pain of my city in flames, the discovery that so many people I know are bigots, and a fantastic loneliness to break through my walls.

So, here I am raw and tender. Confused and fearful.

I liken it to what it must feel like to the caterpillar as it morphs into it’s winged state.

I know this part is necessary.
It’s just I’ve been so efficient at avoiding it for many years.

Not this time. I’m going to own it.

Namaste.

Love,
Pamela

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About PamelaDevine

Pamela Devine is a singer songwriter, fine artist, and filmmaker. View all posts by PamelaDevine

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