My stepmother passed on Thursday.
I have quite literally been at a loss for words.
All I know, really understand, is what I don’t have.
What is leaving a gapping hole in my life and heart right now.
I know I don’t want to be alone while waiting to hear someone has died.
There is no lonelier feeling I can think of.
In fact, I know that I never ever want to sit by the phone waiting to hear someone has died, ever again. I will be next to that person instead.
I know I don’t want to spend the rest of my life without my life partner.
If we’ve live long enough, and love during that time, none of us will escape losing someone we love. It’s part of the participation of life.
It doesn’t seem fair at the moment.
Namaste, my friends.