Surreal anniversary

Had I remained married, I would be celebrating my 26th wedding anniversary today. I was young and reckless in choosing to marry him. We had not known each other long enough. I can’t say it was a mistake, because on Valentine’s Day the following year, my daughter was born. I always say no one has ever, or will ever, give me a better Valentine’s Day gift. 

A while ago, I realized I had been saying I’m not ‘wife material’ based on this experience. I promptly opted out of the whole dating experience because of it. It created a lack of confidence that I was incapable of being a good partner to another. The reality is, we were horribly mismatched. The simplest of conversations were prone to miscommunications. We simply didn’t understand each other. Perhaps, it is one reason that I work so diligently to communicate today.

Now I know I could be a loving partner to someone. It has only taken 26 years to believe it. 

Namaste, my friends.




About PamelaDevine

Pamela Devine is a singer songwriter, fine artist, and filmmaker. View all posts by PamelaDevine

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